Once again it has been a long time. I know there are a few loved ones who check here for news. The thing is I work more than full time and in addition I’m on call 50 percent of every second in my life. It is too much. When I get home I crash but remember 50 percent of that time I’m subject to go out anywhere in the county at any hour and I do. There is no sum of money to equal the sacrifice.

I continue with health problems and I’m certainly another victim of our evil, money grubbing health care (lack of) system. However, I will pay the full amount for a re-pap to rule out cancer as suggested by my doctor, especially since I have all the signs and symptoms of endometrial cancer. Hopefully I’ll come out okay but if not I’ll do whatever is necessary. Every day is different with Grave’s disease and maybe some of those signs and symptoms are related. Maybe because I work with dying people and pronounce death and I have friends who are dying, I have a feeling of impending doom. It is not hopeless and nothing I’m very afraid of but something that is inevitable to us all and I feel that I will get through it okay. As someone wise said, “Death is very easy. We will all be successful at it.!”

So, in short, I am overworked, not physically very well and way behind in creative pursuits which give me satisfaction.

But there is good news. Bob and I are very close. There is magnetism between us and an energy field that that spikes and blends when we’re together. I know that whatever this is I have never had it before. I feel we are meant to be together and it took all these years for us to be ready to meet and to find each other. In this respect my dreams are coming true. The kind, loving, creative and spiritual man I have asked for has come into my life.

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